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Earthquake Lullaby
02:47
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Discomfort is prevalent when the situation’s awkward
And you find things have been left unsaid and eye contact’s become taboo
The world is relative from things we don’t say to things we did
But I never thought that this would happen to you and
I know it happens all the time
But when an earthquake shakes the ground it still don’t feel right
I’m trying to sit still and tell myself my will is strong
But I’ve known it all along and it’s never felt so wrong
I’m trying to believe the glass is not half empty anymore
All’s fair in love and war
But fair is rarely easy when your nerves are pounding in your knees
And the trees are swaying in the breeze from the hot air that we breathe as we don’t speak
We said we’d be friends now, but the joke’s on us, we don’t know how
It’s a work in progress, I guess we’ll have to practice
And I know it happens all the time
But when an earthquake shakes the ground it still don’t feel right
I’m trying to sit still and tell myself my will is strong
But I’ve known it all along and it’s never felt so wrong
I’m trying to believe the glass is not half empty anymore
All’s fair in love and war
But the world around me shakes
And the things I thought were real are fake
And the questions never end
Some of them seem to be hell bent
On breaking my shell that I’ve cushioned oh so well over the years
As I burrow through my fears beneath a sea of drying tears
I’m trying to sit still and tell myself my will is strong
But I’ve known it all along and it’s never felt so wrong
I’m trying to believe the glass is not half empty anymore
All’s fair in love and war
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2. |
Not Over You
03:32
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You say you’re glad you met me but I might have to take a seat
If you keep looking at me, well I just might admit defeat
You say you like her so much, don’t wanna hurt her, she’s so sweet
If you keep looking at me and saying that, I’ll have to leave
But I can’t bear to leave (leave)
You say my hair never looks bad and tousle it up with a wink
If you keep looking at me, then I just might admit defeat
You shout my name across the quad or if you see me on the street
If you keep looking at me and doing that, I’ll have to leave
But I can’t bear to leave (leave)
Oh, I’m so over this feeling, but I’m not over you
Oh ah, you’re still leaving me reeling without a single reason to
I send you messages and wait, but I’ve been waiting now for weeks
If you stop looking at me, well I just might admit defeat
You say you wanna see me, but when I ask you’re too busy
If you stop looking at me, without a word, I’ll have to leave
Don’t know what to believe
Oh, I’m so over this feeling, but I’m not over you
Oh ah, you’re still leaving me reeling with every single reason not to
Oh, I’m so over this feeling, but I’m not over you
Oh ah, you’re still leaving me reeling without a single reason to
You say you’re glad you met me but I might have to take a seat
If you keep looking at me, well I just might admit defeat
You say you like her so much, don’t wanna hurt her, she’s so sweet
If you keep looking at me and saying that, I’ll have to leave
But I can’t bear to leave (leave)
But I can’t bear to leave (leave)
I can’t bear to leave (leave)
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3. |
Dough (The Green Stuff)
03:54
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About that green stuff in your pocket, there’s two ways to go wrong
Throw it away without even thinking or hold it too tight for too long
Like stepping stones and bridges, it’s a way to go somewhere
But it’s no good if you don’t know where you’re going or you’re only standing there
It’s not the beginning, it’s not the end
I realize I need it and I realize it’s not my friend
I want it in the middle, I want it in my hand
I want it given to me and I want to give it up again
Like stepping stones and bridges, it’s a way to go somewhere
But it’s no good if you don’t know where you’re going or you’re only standing there
Usually I’m pretty ambitious for my future
And so I see and understand these cravings for the dollar
But there’s one thing that I’ve learned about bringing the bacon
It’s just a tool, it’s there to build, it’s not the life you’re making
About that green stuff in your pocket, there’s two ways to go wrong
Throw it away without even thinking or hold it too tight for too long
Like stepping stones and bridges, it’s a way to go somewhere
But it’s no good if you don’t know where you’re going or you’re only standing there
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4. |
The Highlight
04:38
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She switched on like a gorgeous chandelier lighting up the room
And life was flooded with her shining eyes and everything we knew
I felt my world begin to open up, like a flower when it blooms
Turned out that chandelier was nothing more than a candle flickering, ooh
But I remember crawling up her spine when time was endless
She told me that we were meant to be good friends and it was
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of her year
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of her year
She worried she would be less interesting if we went too far too fast
But all her worries should have been my own, her feelings couldn’t last
But I remember drawing up her sigh when time was endless
She kissed me and said that we would be good friends and it was
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of my year
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of my year
There’s only so long that I wanna be mysterious and coy
If she don’t like the real me that she knows, guess I was just a toy
But I remember falling for her lie when time was endless
She told me that we were meant to be good friends and it was
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of her year
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight
Ooh ooh ooh, the highlight of her year
I remember crawling up her spine when time was endless
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5. |
Phoenix
04:22
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There we were, watching my life go up in flames
It crashed and burned, just a reminder of the pain
As it smolders and sizzles in my head
The green fields and trees I knew are dead
But I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Watch me rise up from the ash
See I’m reborn from my mistakes
I’m flying high, I’m growing fast
My world adjusts for something new
I’m not built just for loving you
I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Better look out, I’m coming through
The blueprints that I drafted, the building carefully designed
Superior architecture but it was built upon a lie
It comes down down down, bricks smashing, glass crashing
It comes down down down, all around
But I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Watch me rise up from the ash
See I’m reborn from my mistakes
I’m flying high, I’m growing fast
My world adjusts for something new
I’m not built just for loving you
I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Better look out, I’m coming through
When you fall apart, know you’re not destroyed for good
Build on what you’ve learned with the pieces of your broken world
I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Watch me rise up from the ash
See I’m reborn from my mistakes
I’m flying high, I’m growing fast
But I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Watch me rise up from the ash
See I’m reborn from my mistakes
I’m flying high, I’m growing fast
My world adjusts for something new
I’m not built just for loving you
I’m a phoenix, I’m a phoenix
Better look out, I’m coming through
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6. |
Holden's Lament
03:36
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This was boarding school number four and I just walked right out the door
Bet they won’t even notice that I’m gone
I never fit in anyways, don’t care about the football plays
And it’s not life or death whether or not we won
Why are phonies everywhere?
Why must ingenuousness die?
If I could do one thing, it’d be to help care
Of every kid about to fall over the edge to join them all
I wanna be that guy, that catcher in the rye
I wondered where the ducks all go when the pond is all covered with snow
And I thought about giving old Jane a call
Bought a record for my kid sister, it broke before I could see her
I damn near cried, it made me feel so small
Why must the good die young?
Why did Allie have to die?
If I could do one thing, it’d be to catch not one
But every kid about to fall over the edge to join them all
I wanna be that guy, that catcher in the rye
I never seem to have anything that if I lost, I’d be caring
Except maybe my old red hunting hat
I’m one of those very yellow guys, don’t show it but it’s a disguise
Yeah I’m not really one for fistfight combat
And I can be quite sarcastic when I’m in the mood
It’s a big deal cause I’m always kinda moody
I felt kinda guilty so I fired that prostitute
My brother moved to Hollywood, that killed me
Why are phonies everywhere?
Why did Allie have to die?
If I could do one thing, it’d be to help care
Of every kid about to fall over the edge to join them all
I wanna be that guy, that catcher in the rye
In the rye, catcher in the rye
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7. |
Southbound
04:39
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Well I was born and raised in northern cities
Where cities east of New York are more like towns
So sheltered and proud to be right
Preaching ‘bout “live free or die”
And find when we look south, we’re looking down
You came before me sudden like an angel
A southern belle I thought I’d never see
When beauty overcame, our hearts so much the same
We danced and then I knew that I would leave
I’m southbound, I’m going down
Into the mouth of nothing I know
I’m going down, I’m going down
Into the mouth of nothing I know
I know you, I know you, I know you, I know you
I went down and my old fears all felt foolish (I’m such a fool)
A Bible belt prepared to beat me down (you can’t beat me down)
It’s easy way up here to see only that fear
But I’ll conquer all that fear with love that’s boundless
Well I’d heard stories and I used to believe them
I let them cloud my eyes and make me blind
But I’ve read thou shall not judge, be lawful, only love
So I’ve opened up my heart and soul and mind
Well they told me that the Bible doesn’t like my name
I’m gonna read it just the same
And there’s too much talk about all the difference we hate
And nobody’s gonna take the blame
So I’ve gotta reach the people living everywhere
I’m trying to understand, I just can’t wait
Now I’m trying to love you right and do what’s right for me
So I’m southbound at the break of day
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8. |
Closure
04:09
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(Thank you, I needed this, oh yeah)
Well yes, I understand now, it was all a hazy nightmare for you
And I was never playing a leading role, just an extra in the crowd you ran through
We’re sitting down to talk and walk a mile, it’s almost like it hasn’t been that long
You tell me closure’s fake and flash a smile, I wonder why you always think I’m wrong?
I guess that it should hurt (ooh)
I guess that it should tear me up inside
I guess it shouldn’t work (ooh)
Just talk of what went down between you and I
But closure isn’t fake for me
You had walls as far as I could see
Now they’re falling down around your feet and I am free
Yeah, closure isn’t fake for me
You had walls as tall as I could see
Now they’re falling down around your feet and I am free
Well yes I understand now, it was all imperfect timing from day one
While you were going through a living hell, you made a living hell of my simple love
And even as I look back through the year, I feel a weight is lifting from my mind
The wondering is over at long last, the truth is bittersweet but it’s crystallized
I guess that it should hurt (ooh)
But I’ve already hurt enough over you
I guess it shouldn’t work (ooh)
But somehow understanding helps me through
Yeah closure isn’t fake for me
You had walls as far as I could see
Now they’re falling down around your feet and I am free
Yeah, closure isn’t fake for me
You had walls as tall as I could see
Now they’re falling down around your feet and I am free
(Thank you, I needed this, oh yeah)
(Thank you, thank you, I needed this, oh yeah)
Closure isn’t fake for me
You had walls as far as I could see
Now they’re falling down around your feet and I am free (I’m free)
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9. |
New Beginnings
03:50
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Whoa whoa whoa yeah yeah yeah
Whoa whoa whoa yeah yeah yeah
They say what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger
Forgetting all the ways there are to die
I’m grieving for the promises we squandered
Like when I proposed and your only answer was to cry
Though I didn’t leave you lightly, I knew it was right
We were too young and too lonely not to lose sight
For all my life, trapped deep inside
I will not run and hide, not anymore
My love for you was real and true
And your love shined a light lost in the war
But nobody can reside in someone else’s love or light
You’ve gotta fight that war inside until you win
And when it’s won your love will make you strong again
Let’s say what makes you stronger doesn’t kill you
Remember all the ways you can be strong
Maybe you count the ways that I have failed you
The stress was killing me, so tired of feeling wrong
Though I didn’t wanna hurt you, I’d do it again
‘Cause you can’t have new beginnings without an end
For all my life, trapped deep inside
I will not run and hide, not anymore
My love for you was real and true
And your love shined a light lost in the war
But nobody can reside in someone else’s love or light
You’ve gotta fight that war inside until you win
And when it’s won your love will make you strong again (hey!)
Whoa whoa whoa yeah yeah yeah
Whoa whoa whoa yeah yeah yeah
(All my life I’d hide, not anymore)
(My love for you was true, lost in the war)
(All my life I’d hide, not anymore)
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10. |
Shifted
03:19
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I was coming up slowly, I was coming up strong
I was thinking I’d stay there my whole life long
But then I shifted, I shifted
But then I shifted, I shifted
And now I know I’d leave it all behind
I’ll exit, go out to find some peace of mind
I was once so young and fond of planning
So sure I’d make my life so grand
But when doubt came, I was so frightened
Because I didn’t understand
One small step and everything changes
Right or left, the dance rearranges
And we just keep moving to the music
La da da, composing as we go
I’d been loving another, I’d been two for so long
Thought she’d keep me happy, thought she’d make me strong
But then I shifted, I shifted
But then I shifted, I shifted
And now I know I’ll learn to be my own
I’ll exit, go out, confront the world alone
One small step and everything changes
Right or left, the dance rearranges
And we just keep moving to the music
La da da, composing as we go
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11. |
Whether or Not
03:58
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These broad shoulders can carry the sky
And these roots stretch deep wherever I go, by and by
Oh, my power’s full of solitude and my pride is like the night
So silent and full bodied, untouched by moonlight
My past is full of tragedies that I will never quite forget
Even hurts that I’ve forgiven will leave scars that can hurt again
I’m not saying that I’m damaged and I’m not saying to be scared
When my calloused heart is bleeding, I come alive and I’m aware
I am a woman, whether or not you want me
I’m a woman with brains and nerves of steel
And I’ve a darkness, whether or not you love me
I’ve a darkness that only I can heal
This pain is where I come from, oh these hips are where I live
I keep coming home to remember there’s nothing sexier than them
Oh my skin is tender, butter soft, oh it may bend but never break
You know I only take what I need to live and then I give whatever it takes
I am a woman, whether or not you want me
I’m a woman swelling with love and fear
And I am worth it, whether or not you love me
I am worth it and I’ll still live right here
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Anna Mack Los Angeles, California
New England-born, queer and nerdy, singer-songwriter currently based in LA. I've been writing songs to blow off steam ever since that fateful Girl Scouts meeting when I got fed up and penned my first lyric--"Dude, Cool It"--on the chalkboard. Learning how to play guitar and getting my heart broken both just added fuel to the fire! I'm excited to release my first full-length studio album this year. ... more
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